Video Part 1

Prajnajis story with the patterns of thinking from her mother, that she could not trust men; the manifestations of these prophecies; the strong wish to become a nun at the Carmelites; a vision of Mother Mary with a very clear picture of her intended husband; the story how she met this man in fact; the way how this man led her to Papaji; the apparition of Ramana Maharshi which made her fear; the following meeting with Papaji and how he told her to give Satsang immediately; the conflict with her feelings as "I am consciousness" on the one side and the fear for men with the old patterns on the other side; Satsangs in Germany and the realization that her boyfriend was a typical "womanizer", the relationship to him like an interplay of heaven and hell; doubts about this love and relationship

Part 2

Her pain about the way this man treated her; further visions with Mother Mary, who told her "Just love him"; a lot of sadness and pain in Satsangs, when her boyfriend was chasing after other women; raising doubts about the order from Papaji and Ramanas apparitions; painful experiences and suicidal thoughts because of this relationship; nevertheless the surrender to the "order" of Mary, Ramana and Papaji; the realization that many of the women, who came to her Satsangs, were her mirrors and had similar painful experiences and could not speak about the pain in their souls; Prajnajis own wrong belief-systems and the story how a table turned into the face of Papaji and gave her the energy to go on loving this womanizer in spite of the pain; how she was helping in her Satsangs women to gain back their power and how she healed her own traumas at the same time; the point when her own pain vanished and she realized the pain of the womanizer and how since that time suddenly a lot of womanizers came to her Satsangs; how she realized the sense of her own story and could use it for healing other

Part 3

How a Sufimaster hit her and she knew that her real work would start now; her being as pure love and consciousness now, which embraces everything – even womanizers and criminals including what they had done; the trip down memory to the last 14 years and getting clear for her why she had to make these experiences and that she felt the squeeze to speak about it and publish it on Jetzt-TV; the encouragement to the women to talk about their pain and heartaches in relationships and to tell the truth and not being afraid to lose the partner; the encouragement to tell also the truth, when it hurts a woman when the beloved man is watching pornography for better sex; the encouragement to women not to put the responsibility to men but asking themselves, why they do not speak about what hurts; about the patterns and about the humaneness in all these patterns