Video Part 1:

Cesar´s experience at the death of Ratan Lal. Strong emotions that passed after a few seconds. Who is the teacher but your own self? It is always there. Any emotion, any thought observed from aside dissolves. No thought can survive under the light of being observed (Ramana Maharshi)  Who am I? I, mind, ego, individual, person, ignorance, maya, illusion all means the same. Names for a mental self that does not really exist. When investigated it disappears. Whatever I think is not. Everything is ok, everyone, everything that exists is perfectly all right. The difference between reality and illusion: what is real must be permanent, always there, unchangeable, not affected by anything. Everything that appears and disappears cannot be real. Unreality is contained in reality – emotions, conceptions, thoughts come and go, are not real. The Self, consciousness, reality is right here, right now.  The mind, the unreal self covers it. By investigating the “I” it disappears and the real self appears – so easy! No need to fight or control the mind. A gentle shift of attention from the thoughts to their origin, that is all. Our identity is the source, not what arose from the source.

Part 2:

The “I am” is silence, when the thoughts disappear there is silence. Life will go on by itself, no need to worry or think about it. Investigation ends when the thoughts disappear. Everything exists on the substratum of silence. Satsang is about learning to enter into that silence. Silence in Satsang is even better than talking. When there is effort, there is mind. “Mental gymnastics”, thinking is exhausting. Good-bad, right-wrong – is all mind-made. Investigation is an all day long practice, not something we do for 10 minutes. The state of silence is not dullness. It is like a dynamic stillness. Not Cesar experiencing that aliveness, but that aliveness experiencing Cesar. You are That. When That is experienced you may be laughing like an idiot – so what?

Part 3:

Blockades. An experience with “magic mushrooms”. The experience is not the problem, but the thinking about it. Just another illusion. All experiences, whether natural or induced, are constantly changing. Looking for experiences is the problem. The achievement of psychic powers like levitation or out-of-body experiences has nothing to do with enlightenment. Who you really are has no body, it is awareness. Only when you know who you are experiences will not bother you. If we were here and now no questions would arise. A true teacher knows that he has nothing to give or teach you. He will advise you to be still here and now. Searching and wanting is always mental. Stop searching. Just be aware. Awareness is silence and peace. The desireless-state.

Part 2:

Clarity, then again conceptual thinking; take away what covers silence; about reflection; thoughts are only rising long after the original experience; mind is always late; melting in the truth is like not being able to speak under water, only above water you can talk about it; but information about it is impossible, you can only have the experience yourself: go jump, dive, see, investigate; the only hindrance is one’s identity with form; the thought I is the mind; no thought, nobody is there; sun and shadow; I, the shadow of inner matter; sun directly from above, no shadow; the person itself is a thought; no thought can think; in the past without books, the practice to listen, let it sink in, then meditate about it, take it in like food, digest and assimilate. All happens; the world is like a wall in space, turn around, look inside, you are already free; truth comes to you; humor as the sixth sense.

Cesar Teruel, born in Venezuela in 1969, was profoundly interested in spirituality since childhood. Cesar: “I went to India in 1998 looking for the truth. Been in India, I was suggested to visit the Ashram of a Sage called Ramana Maharshi who passed away at the middle of the last century. As I crossed the gate of the Ashram I felt strongly attracted to a particular hall. I entered the hall, and as soon as I had a glimpse of the statue of the sage I felt shock, paralyzed, as when you suddenly, get the fright of your life! My mind stopped and I was surrounded by a deep silence. The experience went deeper and after some time I couldn’t feel my body, and what ever I thought it was ‘ME’, the body and the mind or personality; simply disappeared. I felt as if I was space, living space and the manifestation or the world was just flouting as a mere game of light and colour. I didn’t know at that time that I had experienced what is known as ‘Enlightenment’ or the ‘Truth’. After I regained body mind consciousness there was nobody to confirm the experience as real and it was apparently lost. After some time in India I meet my teacher; Sri. Ratan Lal. He guided me to regain the same experience that I had in Ramana Maharshi Ashram through the question ‘Who am I?’ or self enquiry. After that, my old sense of self base in identity with the body and the mind or personality vanished and I established my self in my true nature; Consciousness”.

Since then, Cesar’s sense of individuality gradually melted away until its ultimate extinction. Since July 2005, after his teacher passed away, following his teacher’s request, Cesar has been conducting public Satsang six days a week in Puttaparthy, south India. He shares his experience and knowledge with other seekers of truth, helping them to realize their true Self. Now he is also travelling across Europe, to give Satsang. Cesar Teruel does not belong to any religion and is not associated with any spiritual organization.