This Satsang with Cesar Teruel took place in Berlin in Oktober 2011.
To treat something totally impersonally the idea that there is a person has to disappear; stay with this: I do no know; the being of not knowing; my nature, where knowing comes from; the body your best friend, you radar; ideas, imaginations, concepts; you feel it, observe it, do not respond; movement away from ego; conditionings and identifications; whatever you do, you do it in peace; it is so exhausting to behave, to keep a self together; awakening and still carrying a piece of ego with oneself; awaken; to know who you are, the most ordinary thing; the “I am” is the seeing; the essence of being, seeing the see
Children are wise already; no one who is free can bring anybody into prison; awakened are like big children; be the spontaneity you are; the result of the unsuccessful attempt of reconciliation; all which was build on the ego feeling has collapse; being totally normal, brutally honest, take it or leave it; the easiest attempt to make compromises produces a horrible feeling in the body; loosing the feeling of separation and ego; do not ask anybody for anything, stay with: I don’t know; let your mind function freely and look what happens in your body; practical thinking does not express itself in the body; concepts diarrhoea; so called awakening does not need time; the process of dissolving conceptional thinking requires time; laughing and laughing and laughing
When you have to work on your relationship you are in a workshop; love does not know any reasons, rights or duties; love loves to love, that is why it is called love; partnership, just being together, the rest is a workshop; if you need someone outside in order for it to work then it is also okay; mental projections and superimposition of ideas; being and being; awakening and life becomes more difficult; all are in the office; everything touches you and reaches you; us humans the only species which does not know itself; foolish within our own race; ignorance, you wish that you can help but you know that you cannot; speak out of your own experience
Talking about truth; speak from your own experience; there is no such thing as the best way of talking; to find the natural form, totally natural, totally true; feeling touched; consciousness is just conscious; spiritual sugar icing; awakening means experiencing everything as peace out of peace; master and disciple; that which is conscious, is consciousness; it expresses itself; consciousness is all there is, identified and not aware of the unidentified aspect; wave and ocean, one and the same; if we are there or not, consciousness is there; there are no spiritual experiences; nothing at all
To go through these experiences in peace; spiritual practice is mental practice; the seventh sense for humour nothing is serious anymore; time is not real, a practical tool
This Satsang was held by Cesar Teruel in October 2011.
What are you looking for? What is here now? The search for what we are in essence, our true nature, peace; the apparently separate identity of the searcher, being transmuted by tremendous peace; to be in true nature, the effortless seeing; recognizing the one in all; pure and clear without qualities, it is absolutely no-thing; the most beautiful that can ever happen to you, the moment of total confusion, the moment of not knowing; the individual cover, our suffering creates searching; mental creations; the perception of this confusion, this suffering has to happen; going totally through what is; to sit down and enjoy the trip; life takes care of it; consciousness awakens from identification.
Practical and conceptual thinking; identified thinking, the appearance of the subject, a thought, then it becomes psychological; in reality words do not have any meaning; practical thinking; structures and ideas; the observed is contained in observing, there is no separation at all – this is it; I found myself, as if I never had existed; true happiness, no thing, nothing is funny; knowing comes out of not knowing, this is paradoxical; it is all my joy, what can I tell you? Let us get rid of you; laughing, true meditation; no message, no messenger; the person is the identified thinking; observe the thoughts and you will find out what your true nature is.
Leave thoughts alone; you are the seeing, which cannot be seen; there is effortless existence; psychological thinking, body and mind; the body is like a bell; unconscious identification; your body tells you what your mind is doing; when mind becomes “me”, when you can see this change; knowledge and psychological knowledge which is transferred; recognizing conditioned actions; conflict and insight in the nonsense; it is about non-identification, back to organic life; no peace in movements; identity with Seya creates identity with the servant, I am pointing go to a concept, an idea.
All in all spirituality is a trap; there is no “I” and no god; if the “I” disappears, then there is nothing; what is heaven? You are peace, experiencing this body when you are not identified; you are totality; if you do not know anything you know always exactly what has to be done; simply be; being totally without identification; the unknown does not even know itself; it just knows, that it is.
Nobody is speaking, it just happens in me; if all falls apart and the character of the relationship to have conflicts; life is an experience, a perception; this is a miracle; to regain the spiritual health; a picture cannot recognize love; we are looking like mad, because we are so open; goodness, which just is, expresses itself; the most difficult one can carry inside, is “ones reputation”: you are free; we are not what we believe; what we believe is not.
This Satsang was filmed by Maren in September 2010 in Berlin.
The feeling of separation, the idea, I am my body; the absolute and when consciousness awakens again; liberation of the I thought and the illusionary is like blown away; at the end of your journey you will laugh and laugh and laugh; nobody; nothing, emptiness; the person is a thought, a thought cannot think; not being anything; we cannot laugh and think at the same time.
Just be silent, the rest is decoration; the seal becomes a shark; in awareness appears what is to be done or not to be done; if you leave a relationship in peace, you will not repeat this relationship; knowing comes from not knowing; when the ground below the feet is gone; the apocalypse of the ego, mind is sad; the melodrama with the mind; perceive, observe, sometimes it is like a roller coaster; sit down and enjoy it, until it is over.
There is no higher and lower self; ideas disappear, the program disappears; the Don Quijote syndrome; Mr/Mrs Ego, I am busy, I have no time for you; the pressure cooker out of which all water has to evaporate; what is reduced to ash cannot be reconstructed; do not resist; do not protect; holy and bad, a concept, an idea and the identification with it; stay hopeless and helpless; stay vulnerable; the indestructible ocean.
Find peace first; the guru and the cappuccino; even war happens in peace; some people use spiritual practice in a wrong way; being aware and staying in peace; thoughts only happen, observe them; when thoughts are recognized they stop here and there; you recognize these thoughts, when you do not feel comfortable, then mind is active as ego; when the mind is silent then all is silent; it is just thought nothing else, nothing more, we are not concerned about anything; when you remain to be the witness you can enjoy the illusion; what is, is earlier than thought.
When you do something with your mind, then you are not aware; identification with a thought happens so quickly; a habit; when you see this trap you are out of it; that what we are trained for; be simple and the doing happens automatically; all happens or not; mind is always late; pleasure and pain; the happiness is elsewhere; to allow the illusion that it surprises me; nothing can make you happy; nothing can take your happiness away; peace is the cleanest expression of being.
This Satsang was filmed by Maren on September 2010 in Berlin.
Identified god, human being minus Ego equals god – god plus Ego equals human being; oneness is god; not alone the end of conflict; perception without perceiver; - paradox, a secret; to know form and be formless; no limitation to the body; the seeing of this slight shift, is to see when you become something; to see the system means to be out of the system, without being separate; everything happens and you see the inner teacher, who judges everything; catching and letting go; neither right nor wrong; to see the conflictless state which is in you, but with which there is no conflict; to regain purity and childhood
Conflict means suffering and duality; identification; the way out of conflict cannot be conflict; you can change yourself only; can you see the seer and the seen? The state of equability does not offer a rose garden but peace; you die as a person, resurrection in an impersonal form; death will never come; that which is alive does not die – the idea of yourself dissapears; god is the space in which the idea of yourself arises and disappears; to find when one does no longer exist and the identity with the pure, holy ego; behind fear are thoughts; when one does not see, what causes the effects; being aware dissolves.
Being aware – life itself; no guarantee; when the question what truth is arises; children, parents and family traditions; awareness sees the potential of the children; give space to the children that they can fly on their own; we call transfer of ego education; caring; the idea of a mother and the best mother of the universe; guidance comes from awareness and not from fear; no authorship; awareness – completely free of any system; force looses itself, to reproduce itself – all is fresh the whole time; the funny dance of the master – a hick-up of awareness.
It is like leaving past and the mind – fluently going through life; nobody wants to know that, because there is no security in it; jump into empty space, out of empty space – jump! Do not worry, it will be given to you; action without desire and without wishes; a meaningless concept – the coolest thing of the world; Karma – what you have “up there” – continuously repeating stories; when these structures of thousand years of conflict in mind collapse; a real peaceful revolution; the idea of the idea itself; what you are is pure awareness; whatever you think is the illusion, the trap of identity with enlightenment; you are absolutely free.
Contract, amulet, safety, black and white magic – forget both; when the blue prince is to come; if one does not grab it is falls back to the head, where it comes from; nobody can take anything away from you without your permission; what happens in the head does not happen at all; it is behind the camera, looks through the camera and the camera is like the ego, that which records what happens and can continuously replays it; seeing is created by the being – neither being nor not being, which recognizes that you are that which sees – neither seeing nor illusion, neither real nor not real; it simply is; in this moment there is neither seeing nor the seer; neither duality nor non-duality; who is who and what is what?
This Satsang was recorded by Maren on September 2010 in Berlin.
Who is annoyed? It collapses once the unconscious becomes conscious; it needs duality to be annoyed; what mind does and the beginning of the end; when you are conscious you are not identified and vice versa; consciousness is a function of being; you are beyond that; as what do you exist in deep sleep? Awareness; when you awake from deep sleep consciousness arises; identification arises; the idea “I am the body” takes place; identification with this idea; formless becomes identified with form.
Senses, body, mind arise in emptiness and get lost in identification; the game of awareness with awareness; no escape from what is; get over the story; you are not what you think; the ideas one has of other persons; recognition of being is the same in all beings; things happen in the space but not to the space; you can get rid of grief when you realize that it is an illusion; pain is physical – grief is mental; recognizing our own being in others is not mental; realizing truth instantaneously and effortlessly; living in peace and true happiness for the rest of life; peace is about nothing, not about something; identification means suffering; no reason required to be happy.
Death is the same experience as deep sleep; you cannot die; the phenomena do not belong to you; learn how to die – you can rest in peace now; noise in the penthouse; mind remains, when you are awakening; mind seen as mind but not as your story; no identity with thought but with source; bring attention back to the seer and the image as well as the seer will disappear; devastate the idea of yourself; see what is felt in the body; “I am” does not depend on anything; mind will throw up pictures all the time; to be conscious of being awareness; investigate this for yourself; objects are food for thoughts only; have a look
Who is dying? everything is an illusion; neither bad nor good; when you recognize the illusion everything becomes your playground; light, happy, nothing to be taken serious; Cesar is not perceiving silence – silence is perceiving Cesar; when you forget everything you can see the truth; the trap of enlightenment and other traps; form is a mirror in which formlessness can realize its existence; liking and disliking are based on identification with form; wider perception; nothing real to be done after awakening; non egoic narzism; to be fascinated about yourself; stop seeking as it is a trap; 180 degree turn; let go “I am that” eventually; stop seeking but do not make it a practice not to seek; be still; awareness of seeker and seeking.
Awareness but no meaning; words and thoughts have no meaning; thoughts and concepts are tools for humans to express themselves; you cannot understand anything with mind; be aware of thoughts and silence at the same time; awareness and content; be aware without getting involved; the power of observation; collective suffering and mind; your presence can bring the other persons out of their drama – simply by being quiet; what is in the other is in you; selfishness wearing the mask of compassion; do not lose track of the observer while observing; do not get the observer lost in the observed.
The difference between awareness and consciousness; cinema analogy; the worldly seeker becomes a spiritual seeker; mind cannot experience the mindless state; awareness becomes aware of itself; recognition happens beyond mind; be quiet and forget it all; be what you are - and then what? What is so serious about this?
Cesar´s experience at the death of Ratan Lal. Strong emotions that passed after a few seconds. Who is the teacher but your own self? It is always there. Any emotion, any thought observed from aside dissolves. No thought can survive under the light of being observed (Ramana Maharshi) Who am I? I, mind, ego, individual, person, ignorance, maya, illusion all means the same. Names for a mental self that does not really exist. When investigated it disappears. Whatever I think is not. Everything is ok, everyone, everything that exists is perfectly all right. The difference between reality and illusion: what is real must be permanent, always there, unchangeable, not affected by anything. Everything that appears and disappears cannot be real. Unreality is contained in reality – emotions, conceptions, thoughts come and go, are not real. The Self, consciousness, reality is right here, right now. The mind, the unreal self covers it. By investigating the “I” it disappears and the real self appears – so easy! No need to fight or control the mind. A gentle shift of attention from the thoughts to their origin, that is all. Our identity is the source, not what arose from the source.
The “I am” is silence, when the thoughts disappear there is silence. Life will go on by itself, no need to worry or think about it. Investigation ends when the thoughts disappear. Everything exists on the substratum of silence. Satsang is about learning to enter into that silence. Silence in Satsang is even better than talking. When there is effort, there is mind. “Mental gymnastics”, thinking is exhausting. Good-bad, right-wrong – is all mind-made. Investigation is an all day long practice, not something we do for 10 minutes. The state of silence is not dullness. It is like a dynamic stillness. Not Cesar experiencing that aliveness, but that aliveness experiencing Cesar. You are That. When That is experienced you may be laughing like an idiot – so what?
Blockades. An experience with “magic mushrooms”. The experience is not the problem, but the thinking about it. Just another illusion. All experiences, whether natural or induced, are constantly changing. Looking for experiences is the problem. The achievement of psychic powers like levitation or out-of-body experiences has nothing to do with enlightenment. Who you really are has no body, it is awareness. Only when you know who you are experiences will not bother you. If we were here and now no questions would arise. A true teacher knows that he has nothing to give or teach you. He will advise you to be still here and now. Searching and wanting is always mental. Stop searching. Just be aware. Awareness is silence and peace. The desireless-state.
The limited free will; you can only choose what you know; the metaphor of the cow with a rope around the neck; the option to live a life without choice; the fear of having no securities; to live in the natural, effortless, choice less self, without struggle; illusion turns into a friend; to see what comes next; to keep the hand open; the same experience in Satsang: the rising of the solution, the answer happens; not to know, to be. No truth in the words, only pointers; consciousness creates and destroys forms, this is its favorite game; the illusion of all and the question: What is real? Illusion is created from reality; identity with the reflection and the original face; liberation from that, what you think; simple, but very profound; old and new hints to basically the same; grasp and hammer it in until it breaks.
Clarity, then again conceptual thinking; take away what covers silence; about reflection; thoughts are only rising long after the original experience; mind is always late; melting in the truth is like not being able to speak under water, only above water you can talk about it; but information about it is impossible, you can only have the experience yourself: go jump, dive, see, investigate; the only hindrance is one’s identity with form; the thought I is the mind; no thought, nobody is there; sun and shadow; I, the shadow of inner matter; sun directly from above, no shadow; the person itself is a thought; no thought can think; in the past without books, the practice to listen, let it sink in, then meditate about it, take it in like food, digest and assimilate. All happens; the world is like a wall in space, turn around, look inside, you are already free; truth comes to you; humor as the sixth sense.
The invitation to experience, who you really are; to investigate; investigate how you believe what you think; attention sleeps; to be in the before and the after; to know in the moment; to be in deep sleep; to be conscious in the waking state; make a theory into a fact, to be conscious of something, that is here for you, that you are; to be happy, peace and love; the true nature, to realize one’s own self; everybody’s search for it, whether conscious or not; to take attention from all objects, also from the thought of I am this or that; shift attention to the subject; who am I without the body, without the mind? Go to the edge of the cliff with yourself, then jump, else it stays believe, history; the certainty of one’s own experience, of awoken sleep; in deep sleep without fear; the investigation of one’s I is only possible in the waking state; free from thought, simultaneously conscious; the ever conscious awareness; to be conscious, that you are consciousness.
Noise in the head, object of one´s awareness; attention for the space in which this noise exists; discovery of the nothingness, the void, the emptiness, the space of silence, of peace; noise and space, thoughts and silence; to go into silence, noise gets less; to know about noise, to be that space; practice this soft, easy change; shift of attention to space; it is possible everywhere and at all times; melting of noise into emptiness; noise comes back, but is reduced, dissolves slowly slowly; the only classroom without textbooks; mind cannot understand that; thoughts disappear in it ; silence and space, in which all exists; nothing is separated from it, nothing outside; enjoy this peace and this beauty; not to want to know about anything else, not even spirituality.
The mind and unpleasant feelings; to be conscious of them; not to play with thoughts; the problem of one´s identity with them; to feel bad; to see the many forms of the ego, to be none of them; to be silent in the dynamic of being alive; go through the fog, leave it behind; to discover the illusion of it; to be space; garbage, letting concepts and ideas come to the surface and letting them go; identification with them means struggle; to go behind the mind, the body and everything else, beyond of that you are already there. The mind turns physical pain into a problem; friendly dealing with physical pain; welcome it like you welcome pleasure; not to deny it, not to fight with it; pain and peace; pleasure and peace; peace is always there.
Cesar Teruel, born in Venezuela in 1969, was profoundly interested in spirituality since childhood. Cesar: “I went to India in 1998 looking for the truth. Been in India, I was suggested to visit the Ashram of a Sage called Ramana Maharshi who passed away at the middle of the last century. As I crossed the gate of the Ashram I felt strongly attracted to a particular hall. I entered the hall, and as soon as I had a glimpse of the statue of the sage I felt shock, paralyzed, as when you suddenly, get the fright of your life! My mind stopped and I was surrounded by a deep silence. The experience went deeper and after some time I couldn’t feel my body, and what ever I thought it was ‘ME’, the body and the mind or personality; simply disappeared. I felt as if I was space, living space and the manifestation or the world was just flouting as a mere game of light and colour. I didn’t know at that time that I had experienced what is known as ‘Enlightenment’ or the ‘Truth’. After I regained body mind consciousness there was nobody to confirm the experience as real and it was apparently lost. After some time in India I meet my teacher; Sri. Ratan Lal. He guided me to regain the same experience that I had in Ramana Maharshi Ashram through the question ‘Who am I?’ or self enquiry. After that, my old sense of self base in identity with the body and the mind or personality vanished and I established my self in my true nature; Consciousness”.
Since then, Cesar’s sense of individuality gradually melted away until its ultimate extinction. Since July 2005, after his teacher passed away, following his teacher’s request, Cesar has been conducting public Satsang six days a week in Puttaparthy, south India. He shares his experience and knowledge with other seekers of truth, helping them to realize their true Self. Now he is also travelling across Europe, to give Satsang. Cesar Teruel does not belong to any religion and is not associated with any spiritual organization.
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